Lower back strain and book reviews

I strained my lower back earlier this year and I’ve strained my back again! The first time I strained it, I was wearing a pair of structured pants that were so hard to put on and take off. This time, though, I have no clue what could have caused it. My suspicions lie with the non-ideal seating configuration in my classroom but it could be something else entirely.

Anyway, since I was basically laid up in bed all weekend after an intense acupuncture session, I booted up my e-reader (a Kobo Clara - the black and white version, if you’re wondering) and borrowed a bunch of books from OverDrive. So far, I’ve finished 4 books.

Maybe You Should Talk to Someone by Lori Gottlieb

An insightful book. I really appreciated how Gottlieb gives insight into her practice, her clients’ and her own emotional messes and defenses in a compassionate and real manner. Underlying all these individual stories, there is a sense of how we all struggle with the same feelings of anger, grief, loss, insecurity, shame, fears of growing old, fears of being left behind, etc. The humanness of all of us, in our imperfect nature. She also shares some insights into how therapy works, though to be fair, there’s definitely room for intersectionality.

Rating: 3.5/5

I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

I love Jennette McCurdy. I love her voice throughout the memoir. She’s self-aware and a little sardonic. I love how she brings us through her life, her struggles with her abusive mother, growing up doing her best to cater to her mother’s whims and fancies, feeling responsible for her mother’s emotional and mental states, and the eating disorder(s) that she was coached into having, and the ones that they evolved into. It does go into detail about eating disorders and sexual abuse.

It verged on a little too much detail for me at times but it wasn’t too indulgent or anything, just discomfiting. it was interesting to read about Jennette’s experience as a child actor in Nickelodeon, on shows that I’ve watched in my teenage years, iCarly and Sam and Cat. I remember my sister watching the spin-off series quite a bit. I never got that into it. I definitely think people who don’t know Jennette McCurdy would also enjoy her memoir, though people who do, might get a little more from it.

Rating: 4/5

Tender Is the Flesh by Agustina Bazterrica, translated by Sarah Moses

It’s been a while since I’ve read dystopian fiction. This one explores a future where animals are no longer safe for human consumption and people have turned to sourcing their meat from other humans, or heads, as they call it in the novel. It follows protagonist Marcos as he goes about his life, working at a special meat processing plant. Throughout the book, Marcos comes across mostly resigned to the way his life is after what’s termed The Transition, after the death of his son, his wife leaving him, and his dad suffering from dementia. The book explains the new reality quite plainly and how people come to terms with it by way of cognitive dissonance. The specific language used regarding the special meat is dehumanising and objectifying. As a result, the book was not as difficult to stomach as I’d thought, but I really do suggest checking the trigger warnings first before thinking about picking this book up.

It’s also interesting to read about how Scavengers, people who procure whatever special meat they can get, however they can get it, are juxtaposed with the people who follow all the regulated ways of procuring the special meat. The parallels to the meat industry we have today aren’t missed and in a depressing way, the way women (females) are treated in the story is very similar to what happens today. If you’re looking to find some kind of light at the end of the story tunnel, there isn’t one.

Rating: 3/5

Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro

A novel about an Artificial Friend (AF) named Klara and how she, a solar-powered companion, is chosen by Josie, a child who’s afflicted by some kind of condition that weakens her. It starts off with Klara in the shop, and how she observes the world and AFs around her. We understand the world through Klara’s perspective and experiences, which felt very limited. There is a little touch of how technology has replaced many humans and taken jobs away, and how tenuous but long-lasting connections can be. It’s an interesting exploration into what makes humans human.

I like how fervent Klara is in her belief, and I like how the other characters Klara interacts with all struggle with their different decisions and Josie’s illness. The ending was bittersweet. It underscores how our relationships to people naturally diverge and how connections that used to seem so strong and intense can fade away. It was a touching story, but I really do wish I could have learnt more about the world the story took place in.

Rating: 4/5

Honestly, I find it hard to share my experiences because I never know how people will understand what I’m trying to put across but I hope these reviews are a little helpful and if you’ve read any of these books, feel free to let me know what you think. What books have you read recently? I would love to pick up more books on OverDrive. Right now, I have Yellowface by R.F. Kuang, Wrong Place Wrong Time by Gillian McAllister, and Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng borrowed. I’m not going to talk about the physical books that I have bought and have yet to unwrap / crack open.

Goodbye, May

How has it been (more than) a month since the yard sale took place?? May just completely eluded me - I fell ill at the end of April and again in the middle of May, and have just been recovering and getting back into the groove of things since then. The yard sale was An Experience, with all the shenanigans that we got up to in making it work.

First, it was challenging and tiring enough to sort through all our belongings, label them and put them out on display. Second, we set up a tarp in the backyard so that we could use the outdoor area to sell our wares, rain or shine, but the tarp literally broke in the early morning due to torrential rain (that continued through the morning). Third, it was tiring to mill around and make sure everything was okay for all the people who came by! Thank goodness for all the friends (old and new) who turned up to help out, make sure we were all hydrated, caffeinated, and well-fed.

We also did not get a group photo together, so this badly photoshopped one will have to suffice!!

Wow, I typed out the rest of the post and lost it. Was I silent or was I SILENCED?!?? Anyway, this post has been sat in my drafts for the longest time and June is now coming to an end! What! This month has been a whirlwind. I’ve been chugging along, tackling my weekly tasks for my day job, preparing for the choir concert (more details here) — rehearsing and cooking up visuals (see the grid here), showing up in many ways, going on a quick day trip to JB with 2/3 fellow studio mates, and it’s been A LOT. I’m only now sitting down (for the second time) to finish this post so I can be rid of this task hanging over my head because I’m on MC for a cold I caught. My brain is soup at this point, but I’m glad I’m getting this post done and I managed to send out a draft for a visual that I honestly thought would never materialise.

The view on the way to the bus stop was so beautiful!!! The early morning glow is so gorgeous.

Kitten in JB.

The number of times I’ve fallen ill just this year alone has me feeling more and more like my body can’t handle too many activities all at once anymore. I’m turning 29 and soon, I’ll be 30! Teenage me would be shocked at how far I’ve come and how long I’ve kept going. I’ve started journalling again after giving up on The Artist’s Way earlier this year. A common theme I keep returning to is the idea of reclaiming all my past selves whom I had worked tirelessly to scrub out and shred. I used to feel a lot of shame over my hotblooded youth, but I miss that part of myself now. I was so unapologetic and impulsive.

I also wrote. A lot. I would tweet non-stop, type up nonsense without a care, and scribble out terrible poetry (actually, some are not half bad). I remember feeling so different from everyone around me and it was difficult to feel seen. My abysmal social skills and strange interests had some part to play in that for sure. There are many things I do regret about past friendships and situations. They could have gone so many ways. Oh well. What else can we do but carry on and persist? Anyway, that’s all to say that I’m glad I am where I am in life, and that despite all my worries and fears, life simply goes on, and I along with it. I hope the first half of 2024 has treated everyone well, and if not, I hope the coming half of the year will be better.

Van

Studio Villa Bimba

If you’ve been keeping up with my socials and staying up to date with my shenanigans, you would know that I got a studio space with a few friends and we’ve been working to make the space cosy and functional. If you didn’t know, now you do! Things are slowly shaping up and even though we’re still waiting on [the relevant authorities] to paint over some more walls, fix the well, and fix the swamp situation in the backyard during heavy downpours, everything has been so so lovely.

Our Instagram account, managed by Jhawnette, has all the updates, all the neighbourhood cat news, and more! Follow us there!! We also have a yard sale coming up soon. (You didn’t hear this from me..)

My little corner in the studio space and the shelf filled with snacks, zines, prints and cleaning supplies. I love how the yellow IKEA SOTENÄS chair brightens up my little nook. It pairs so nicely with the wooden table a friend of the studio so kindly gave us to cherish and use. The red wooden chair we got off of carousell from someone in the neighbourhood. Very serendipitous and a complete steal!

A closer look at the wireframe of art prints and stickers on display. I would put more up but I’m too lazy to find more clips to use.

Baby wipes and a Berry Winkle Crow Boi plush with a maggi goreng kudasai bracelet Jhawnette made for me. Don’t mind the peeling paint, we’re waiting on [the relevant authorities] to rectify it…

Bimba the resident cat and namesake of the studio loves taking naps out in the backyard. She is a true princess and I am her humble servant.

She’s so wonderfully precious!

On to actual artistic endeavours, I’m working on a Chorallective project (I’m singing in it as well, btw — early bird tickets available till 29 April. Get them here!), preparing to send some art files to be printed as stickers, brainstorming ideas for studio branding and merchandise, and thinking about the direction I want to go in for my own personal art practice.

At times, I feel that I’m silly for investing time and effort into developing my art practice, but staying stuck and simply showing up for my day job 52 weeks a year is not something that’s fulfilling to me. After all, I’ve spent so much time trying out other things. Why not work on something that gives me joy right now? Everyone has to start somewhere.

What’s something that you would like to pursue or carve more time out for?

Stay cool and hydrated!
Van